WHAT'S YOUR REALITY?

If you know me , you know that I am very indecisive. I never know if I'm coming or going and sometimes, that's not a good thing. I was complaining to my sister about life and how eventually trying gets tiring. I remember this period of my life like a bad stomach virus ; you know , one of those nostalgic memories that if you think about it too hard you find yourself feeling everything you felt then (like a good ole' hang over from drinking some cheap vodka lol ). I had just been advised by admissions of WIU that I had to sit a semester out , I was 3 months pregnant with my second child and then my job had the nerve to fire me (talk about the domino effect). So here I am , 22, No Job ,No Plan , No Money , and not one but TWO kids.

I was so ashamed of myself . I felt like I had been trying and trying and nothing was going right. The most amazing thing about reality is there will always be more than one. No one person's reality is the same as the next. According to my reality, I was this innocent victim and life had chosen me to prey on *sounds off empathetic sound effects* .. My sister listened to me complain and cry for months until one day she just stopped listening and gave me the realest advice ever; She said "you know what Anita (that's me in case you didn't know lol) AT A CERTAIN AGE , THERE'S NO LONGER A SUCH THING AS TRYING. IT'S EITHER YOU DO OR YOU DON'T" .

Now when she first said it I thought to myself like damn , she bogus , she know what I'm going through , she know I been trying; I wasn't ready to stop being the victim. Although I didn't want to hear it (usually when its the right advice we don't) , she was 100% right. Sometimes its best to look at your life from someone else's reality. In my mind , I was this helpless little victim being demolished by this terrible world; but to my sister , everything that was happening was because of the choices I made. It's so easy to become your own worse enemy and not realize that YOUR the cause of your own destruction. The sooner we realize how much control we hold over our own lives, the better off we'll be. So what's your reality? , after all , the choice is yours!