TO BE or Not TO BLOG

Would you believe me if I said I have typed up two marvelous blogs (yesterday and the day before that) only to have them mysteriously deleted before I could publish and post them? As a free lance writer it's hard to remake such entertainment. I am one of many that believes in astrology , religion , the universe; hope rather. We as humans find comfort in things that are intangible but meaningful. It's like we need to know why or what everything means. The first time my blog deleted I tossed my phone and called it a night. My daughter could tell that I was irritated and preceded to let me know that it was okay because she loved me lol. The second time I was in the middle of typing a sentence and poof! Everything just vanished and I was left with a blank white space. Instead of throwing the Ipad (it's not mines to throw) , I politely sat it down on the table and went to interact with my family, but I could not understand WHY MY BLOGS KEPT DELETING. Could it be the topics weren't what I was supposed to blog about? Or something as simple as they just deleted? If your a person that thrives off of meanings and hope , that second justification won't do you any justice.

After 24 years of life, I've had to conclude that I'm a median kind of gal. Yes, everything has a meaning and there is hope and rainbows and unicorns, but sometimes those meanings could be as simple as yes, my blogs were just deleting; Could have even been that they weren't saving automatically due to the devices I utilized to create them. We spend so much time obsessing over things and meanings that are really irrelevant to our present day life. My guy loves to tell me that "I'm worried about the wrong S#$!" Just this once he may be right (Don't tell him I said that). If you focus too much on why something didn't happen or go the way you wanted it to go , you waste ample time that could have been spent on an alternative solution that could have been just as rewarding. The longer you live , (almost 30 here!), the wiser you get. If you want to survive in this world the #1 thing you have to accept is LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS FAIR. I'm still upset that those beautiful 240+ characters have disappeared and won't ever be shared with my readers but as you can see, it won't stop me from creating more magic (my blogs lol). So don't let minor set backs consume you, let it be a stepping stone for a MAJOR come back!